Former Little Combine singer Jesy Nelson claimed that she attempted suicide earlier than leaving the band in 2020.
“I mainly simply sat everybody down, and I simply defined how I used to be feeling,” Nelson, 34, stated in her Prime Video docuseries, Life After Little Combine, revealing how she perceived bandmates Perrie Edwards, Jade Thirlwall and Leigh-Anne Pinnock’s reactions to her overwhelming panic assaults and want to stop performing. “I simply felt like nobody cared.”
Nelson claimed that one in every of her bandmates succinctly replied, “Are you carried out now? Is that it? Can I’m going now?”
Listening to her bandmate’s remark made Nelson really feel particularly alone.
“[I felt] like there’s simply no level to this,” she tearfully stated. “Nobody cares.”
Nelson’s mother, Janice White, additionally began noticing her daughter was feeling “down and actually down” after the dialogue.
“[She] was not speaking a lot,” White stated within the doc. “She needed to be on her personal rather a lot, and I simply bought a intestine feeling that one thing wasn’t proper. I stored ringing and ringing [her phone], after which I used to be getting no reply. She ultimately answered the cellphone, however she was speaking actually slurry, and I might hear the cellphone drop after which I didn’t hear anything. I knew she had carried out one thing.”
Nelson was subsequently hospitalized.
“I simply was so unhappy, like, I used to be so down,” she recalled. “I knew from that second of popping out of hospital that I mentally couldn’t [continue in the band], and earlier than I might actually have a dialogue with the women, I wanted to determine the place I used to be legally when it comes to ‘May I even come out of it now?’”
Nelson stated the band’s legal professional “sadly” informed the opposite singers about her plans to leave the group earlier than she might say something.
Little Combine performs throughout The BRIT Awards 2019 held at The O2 Enviornment on February 20, 2019 in London, England. Gareth Cattermole/Getty Photos
“I believe they felt actually harm by that, and it ought to by no means have performed out like that,” Nelson claimed. “I really feel like that was taken away from me, and I didn’t get my alternative to clarify why I couldn’t do that anymore. I [had] mentally bought myself prepared and was, like, ‘I wanna sit down with the women and I wanna chat to them and simply inform them why I did what I did and the way I’ve been feeling.’”
Nelson additional claimed that Edwards, 32, Thirlwall, 33, and Pinnock, 34, wouldn’t agree to speak with her until a therapist was current.
“I had simply come out of hospital, that is once I want you probably the most,” Nelson recalled. “I simply didn’t really feel like they had been my sisters. It’s been 5 years now and each time I give it some thought, I’m like, ‘Was it them or was it the administration?’”
Nelson was prepared to go away Little Combine in 2020 after struggling along with her psychological well being.
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“We [were] given the TV present The Search. Whoever the winner was, then would go be the assist act for us on the final tour which, clearly, nobody knew that it was the final tour both,” she recalled within the Prime Video docuseries. “Now due to [COVID] lockdown, the tour was not gonna be for one more two years. I simply keep in mind being like, ‘I can’t do it. I bodily can’t do it.’ I do know I can’t final one other two years with the way in which I’m feeling.”
In line with Nelson, there have been days she felt like “a very depressing bitch.”
“Little issues ultimately construct up and construct up and construct up and, yeah, they do get to a boiling level in some unspecified time in the future,” she stated. “I’d been in lockdown, felt that happiness and now I’d been swarmed with this rush of hysteria and insecurities, which I didn’t have once I was at residence and in lockdown and I felt protected. I began then having panic assaults once more.”
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Nelson continued, “After I went again to work after which I simply had this concern of performing — for me to be petrified of performing was so irregular, as a result of once I was on stage, that was the place I felt probably the most assured. I didn’t like recording anymore.”
Little Combine announced Nelson’s departure in December 2020, one yr earlier than Edwards, Thirlwall and Pinnock went on an indefinite hiatus as a gaggle.
Jesy Nelson: Life After Little Combine is presently streaming on Prime Video.
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