Kody Brown detailed his personal emotional rollercoaster on Sister Wives following the loss of life of his son Garrison Brown.
“Grief hits you in waves. When it hits me, I can’t run from it,” Kody, 56, defined throughout the Sunday, Could 11, episode of the TLC collection, which was filmed roughly 4 months after Garrison died by suicide in March 2024 at age 25.
Kody revealed, “If I cry it out, or if I sob it out, I can lower it brief, however when that wave comes, I can’t stop it from affecting me.”
Kody and ex-wife Janelle Brown introduced their son’s passing in March 2024 and later celebrated his life with a household funeral. The previous couple, who cut up in December 2022, share five additional children.
Along with a navy funeral for Garrison, Kody set out on his personal “pilgrimage” to his birthplace of Wyoming to place his son to relaxation close to household. Janelle’s ancestors are additionally buried within the space, and she or he mentioned on Sunday’s episode, “I wish to be buried proper subsequent to Garrison” when her time comes.
Kody, in the meantime, made it clear he needed to take Garrison “residence” and bury his ashes “subsequent to his grandma and his grandpa and, you already know, simply type of … end the circle.” He famous, “I used to be the primary one which held him. That is my son. I rocked him to sleep. That is a part of my mourning course of.”
Kody began to tear up occupied with Garrison’s ultimate resting place and their unfinished enterprise. “Generally out of the blue, out of the blue, it’ll overcome me. Virtually, like, some type of anxiousness assault,” he revealed. “Only a deep, overwhelming feeling that I’ll by no means see him once more.There’s a lot left unsaid, a lot left undone.”
Kody and Garrison were on the outs previous to his loss of life after Kody enforced strict tips for the household throughout the coronavirus pandemic. Kody additionally butted heads with son Gabriel Brown over the identical situation.
“Garrison’s poster will at all times be in my storage, and I at all times will at all times see it and surprise what was missed sooner or later that will have been,” Kody continued. “And it’s a sport of consciousness to maneuver with grief, to make your blood candy as an alternative of bitter from the ache.”
Janelle, for her half, went to the Flagstaff, Arizona, Excessive Nation Humane Society throughout Sunday’s episode to see how they honored Garrison and his love of cats. She famous that Garrison’s nursing college mates needed to pay tribute to him, so she recommended donating to the animal society in his title and it “snowballed” from there.
The native group, the place Garrison adopted his animals, named their cat adoption room after him with a commemorative plaque.
“Since his passing, $25,000 [has] been raised for Excessive Nation Humane for the cats,” a Excessive Nation Humane employee revealed. “Along with the room naming, we additionally sponsored all the cat adoption charges in Garrison’s title in March. And we did 36 cat adoptions in honor of Garrison.”
Janelle was speechless after seeing all of the “good that has come” from Garrison’s premature loss of life. “I wanted to return and see,” she mentioned. “It’s virtually like a legacy. So, I had to see it.”
Sister Wives airs on TLC Sundays at 10 p.m. ET.
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